I hate this time of the month when I just hate my life. At the same time I’m jealous of everyone else who have everything I don’t. I want their jobs, their friendships, their relationship with their significant other, and all of fun they are having. I get mad at my sister for going out with her friends because o can’t do the same exact thing. I feel these emotions even though I still have a pretty good life. It’s as if these irrational thoughts override any feelings of gratitude I have for my parents who are my major financial source and foundation right now. Eventually I know the time will pass and I won’t feel so sad anymore, but what do I do in the meanwhile so I don’t feel so sorry for myself?
Our friendship is really important to me too and I hope we stay friends forever.
"You’ll be fine. Feeling unsure and lost is part of your path. Don’t avoid it. Take a breath. You’ll be okay even if you don’t feel okay all the time."
It’s so funny how you can meet one person and they instantly become one of your best friends. But then you can meet another person and they eventually become someone you hate and never want to see again. I always say things happen for a reason. It’s easy to figure why I met my new best friend. It gets more difficult when I think about my new enemy. Was it that so I learn that I can’t instantly trust someone and everything that they say? Did I have to learn the hard way that just because you like someone they will like you too? Or maybe I had to learn that it’s not worth it to be friends with someone who never answers your questions, is selfish and immature, and just a complete jerk. Thank goodness I had my new friend to talk all of this over with. Eventually my heart and mind will be back to normal and I’ll know better in the future.
"A reader lives a thousand lives before he dies, said Jojen. The man who never reads lives only one."